Something Special

     As the kids return from break I am staring to get the realization of how unbelievable the power, grace, and love of God can be. I am also starting to realize how amazing and awesome a place like Heartlight is.You could honestly see the joy on not only the kids faces from how great their breaks went, but on the parents faces as well. One of true enjoyment from spending QUALITY time together, not just being together but whole heartedly enjoying one anothers company and being a family again for the week. While talking to Jason Frey, my fellow residential staff and house director tonight, he stated something that hit home hard! He said, "It is days like today, and moments like that, that make you feel like you're actually doing something and making a diffence." BOOM!!!!
      Last semester, I was in a bible study with guys from the Wesley Foundation at Delta State. At one of our first events we were asked, "If you could do anything in the world without any chance at all of failure, what would it be?" Immediately I knew my answer. It was one that is simple, yet complex at the same time (kind of like me). I would 'make a difference and help others'. Done, end of discussion, game set and match. That is all I would want, and simply that's all I've ever wanted in life is to help others and make a differnce. I say this NOW not for slef gratification, but for the fact that if I can help someone and they can see the joy and compassion in me, I honestly feel that I can spread God's love. My devotion this morning: "The world will know Him by the love that you show to one another" (John 13:35). I totally hadn't planned on blogging any of this paragraph but it kinda just came out, but it fits the topic at hand.
     If you were to have asked me that same question two years ago, you would have gotten the same answer, because helping others is something I have always enjoyed, but for the wrong reasons and motives. In the past, I helped others yes, but for self gratification, and the sole purpose that it made me feel good about myself. A pride issue so to speak. There is no doubt I have made the right decision in coming to Texas. As hard as it was to step out of my comfort zone it is the step the strengthens ones faith and trust in God. After all, Peter had to step out of the boat to see if he would not sink. In closing, please continue to pray for Heartlight, the kids, staff, and myself. I can not wzit to see what God has up his sleeve and in store for the next year!!!